Wow. God is so good. You know those times in Your life when He speaks and it's a hard word yet so encouraging- Where grace and truth collide perfectly and it causes you to move and do something. That happened to me last night. I had the opportunity to meet Matt Redman at a private dinner before his night of worship at Life church. I was so humbled and so encouraged to talk to so many different worship leaders in the area. He came and introduced himself to David and I, and he asked if we were songwriters as well as worship leaders. I said that I had led a few of my songs for worship services, but not really. Ever since I have had the girls, writing has been few and far between. It's difficult to concentrate on something with constant interruption-So my excuse was to simply not do it, or not do it often.
But the Lord spoke to me so clearly last night during worship about gifts and talents. He has given me a gift to write music and to lead worship. And he didn't give it to me to boast in or be prideful. He gave it to me so that I could give it to you, so that He would be glorified. So really when I am sitting on this huge gift that He has given to me, I am being disobedient because as long as it stays inside me, He can't receive the glory. This past year has by far been the most difficult and painful year of my life. There are things I don't understand, but I know that God writes some of the most amazing songs through me when I go through difficult times. And I know that He will begin to heal me when I operate in the giftings that He has given to me. But they aren't just meant for me. They are meant for His glory. So I want to share this song that I wrote this morning with anyone who reads this to encourage you.
Yet You Hold Me
Vs. 1
How long must I wait
I hear You speak just be still
But I'm growing tired and weary
and I can't find this peace You give
So I wait
Chorus:
And You breathe life into me
When I rest, I find Your peace
And I know You hold it all
Yet You hold me
What is life, without Your name
What is truth, without Your grace
This I know, You hold it all
Yet You hold me
Vs. 2
This pain that's deep inside my soul
That ache in me I can't let go
But as I surrender and lay it
down at Your feet, You give me peace
And so I wait
Chorus:
And You breathe life into me
When I rest, I find Your peace
And I know You hold it all
Yet You hold me
What is life, without Your name
What is truth, without Your grace
This I know, You hold it all
Yet You hold me
Bridge:
So I keep singing, I keep praising
I'm not letting You go
When my world is crashing, I fix my eyes on You
And You alone
